184.4! :)

Sooo, I had a nice sized post typed up and then blogger deleted it. :( Soo to sum it up:

I'm lower than i expected especially since this weeked i treated myself to foods i looove, but i didn't eat as much as i normally would have.

I'm skipping lunch today..I "forgot" to pack it. My mom and I are going to start walking together, as well as doing an ab workout together. :) I'm rather excited about that.

I'm going to make my goal weight for Christmas to be 130. I want to be at my ultimate goal weight of 120 by Valentines Day. I think those are both resonable, now I just need to figure it out, and get it down on paper as a reminder for me. :)

I'm going to go work on my goals....RIGHT NOW!

187.5

Well I guess being down by .5 is better than nothing. Really to lose the "average, healthy" 2-3 pounds a week, I guess I'm doing fine. I could be better, but as far as working out goes, I am very limited, due to my knees. But I plan on walking no matter what starting Sunday. I've been doing an ab workout, that I think I'm going to start doing both morning and night. That should help.

I'm really disappointed with myself that I didn't kick my weightloss plann into gear--back in the beginning of the summer, other wise I would have been very, very near my goal weight of 125 by August 16 (Senior Pictures!) But I suppose I will make due with what I got, since it's my only choice. By my graduation...I'm going to look stunning! :) Scratch that by Janurary I'm going to look stunning. I want to find a really sexy slim dress for prom this year :). I've also decided that I want to lower my UGW to 120. :) Eeeek! I'm so excited.

I haven't ate anything yet today! Which is pretty good considering that normally by 9 I feel as if I'm starving. I have a salad here for lunch. I'm going to over estimate 500 calories (a little cheese, ham, and banana peppers). The ham is 210 cals, cheese around 60, banana peppers 0! I have dressing I didn't measure it by I know it isn't over 290 cals. But I'll still say 500, its just easier that way, at least today.

I promise I'll be back later today with my update on my goals! Also, I have a facebook page now- Add me..I can't post the link now (facebook is being gay) but my name is "Spencer Moss" The display picture is the same as on here!

Peace.Love.Skinny-Spencer

188

Alot has happened since my last post. First I was on vacation--I actually didn't do to horrible, but I definitely didn't do very good. Today when I finally had the nerve to weigh myself I was 188 even. I'm going to re-evaluate some goals a little bit, because I'm afraid I've thrown everything off. Ughh. :(

Ohh, and when I got back from vacation my mom had cleaned my room--liiike everywhere in my room. (I keep in my ana journal/thinspo diary behinde this little bookshelf thing) Yup it got moved. All the papers I had printed off, the journal, and diary we're all laying front and center on my bed. I didn't know what to do, so I simply threw it all away, and so far nothing has been said. I figure once school gets here I can get a new one and just keep it in my locker. Then I don't have to worry about my mom finding it. Ughh. My family watches Make It or Break It together, every week-- Well one of the girls is clearly struggling with a eating disorder, and i feel as if my mom is just staring into the back of my head...very ackward.

I'll post some more updated goals on here ASAP. I have more followers! Thanks guys!

Peace.Love.Skinny-Spencer

I Guess We'll See...

I'm leaving for vaca tomorrow, with my boyfriends family. :) I'm excited yet terrified at the same time--soooo much eating out. BUT I'm going to stick with salads/the low cal menu ( a lot of restaraunts seem to have now).

Sorry I didn't blog yesterday! But I'm officially losing from the 192 pounds I weighed on Tuesday. I'm back down to 188.6. Nooooot good, but it's better than nothing. I had really wanted to be down to 182 on sunday, but that's not going to happen. Soo I'll pry readjust my goals just a tiny bit AND ONLY THIS TIME!! I'm also going to decide what my rewards will be. :) Ahhhhh I'm so excited to be skinnnny.

I am FINALLY getting some more followers! Thanks guys. :)

I know today for lunch I'm eating aprox 250 cals ( a cheese stick and some meat slices). Soo that'll be good, I'm just not sure what my mom will bring me for supper tonight. :s

I plan on blogging when I can on vaca. :)

Good luck everyone!

Peace.Love.Skinny-Spencer

Disappointment.

I don't understand why I can't control myself. Why I can't go without. Ugh, and it frustrates me soo much. This is all I want. I want to be thin. I just keep thinking I have time, I have time--especially when it came to losing the weight for my senior pictures. I have to face the fact I'll probably only be around 175 so I'm going to make it my goal to get down to 170-175 for my pictures. I wanted to be at my goal weight, but thats absolutely impossible.

I'll just lose the weight during first semester and come back second semester hotter than ever. :) I will do this. I can do this. I have to do this. I have bad knees- in fact both my knees have had surgery, now i have re-injured one again. My mom thinks that just losing the weight will help it feel better. God I hope so.

I need some good motivation I just don't know what. Gahh. I need to figure this out.

Goals.

First off, I have decided on my goals. :)

GW1: 163- September 5
GW2: 145- October 7
GW3: 133- December 12

I determined these goals by losing only 3 pounds a week. Sooo hopefully I can reach my UGW of 125 by December 26. :) Just in time for the New Year. This week is going to be a challenge I weighed 189.6 this morning, by Sunday I reallly need to be at 182. Soo I'm kinda nervous about that.

In other news:

I was searching the internet for some of the old pro-ana websites I used to always go to--they're GONE. :( Sooo I have decided to create my own. :) That's what I plan on doing today, to keep myself preoccupied. I'll keep you posted!

peace.love.skinny-Spencer

Ohhhh boy.

Well. Today hasn't went as planned. At all.

I have managed to eat:
Trailmix- 250
Twix- 250

My mom already made me a salad for lunch, sooo that won't be too bad.

I promise to do better tomorrow. Promise.

It's just so hard finding that groove again. It's so hard to push the thought of food out of my mind--especially once i think of it. But I have no choice, if I want to look amazing to bring in 2011 I have to get serious. I just have to. Why can't we have our cake and eat it to. Hmmm that's an ironic saying. Because I looove food. But more than anything I want to be 125. That would be pure bliss.

I'm going to work on a little timeline dealy to keep me on track with goals. :) I need to treat weight loss like an assignment. That I can't fail- because if I do I basically fail at life. Why haven't I thought of that before? Ughh! I'm so pumped and encourage now. Sooo pumped!

I'll update with goals later- possibly tomorrow.

peace.love.skinny-spencer. :)